Be “warned”—for better or for worse, this is one of my more jocular posts. I’ve been having a minor dilemma lately. About what, you ask? See the title of this post: eyebrows. Seemingly random, I know. But let me explain. Most people have these little patches of hairs above their eyes, and they’re considered a pretty mundane, normal, and necessary thing. I’ve always been a bit obsessive about my eyebrows, plucking here and there until I deemed no hair was out of place. They were never something I thought about in relation to transitioning, and once I decided to start transitioning, I started to try to butch them up a bit. You know, so they didn’t look quite like this anymore:
It wasn’t until my mom made a comment about my eyebrows a few months ago that I realized I probably needed to pay some attention to them during my transition. When I first came out to her with my decision to transition, I remember her clearly exclaiming over the phone, “But you have girl eyebrows!” I laughed and shook my head, surprised that that was what first popped into her head. As if I would look in the mirror, realize that I have “girl eyebrows” and think, “oh my god, I can’t transition now!” I figured that I would just let them grow into a less groomed, more manly state, and if the current shape of my eyebrows is one of my bigger transition-related concerns, then my transition will be a piece of cake.
I’ve been trying to let my eyebrows grow, and it’s stressing me out. Such a silly thing to be stressed over, but I can’t be a man with perfectly groomed thin “female” eyebrows! The real issue is that I’m not sure what my eyebrows are supposed to look like. Do I let them grow haphazardly with stray hairs poking every which way? I never think they’ll get to be bushy (thankfully!), like this:
But, I have no idea what they’re supposed to look like. I know, I know, you’re probably thinking that I’m way over-thinking this (and I am, I can admit that), but even Alex has told me that I have very feminine eyebrows. I know my ability to pass after top surgery will by no means be dependent on what my eyebrows look like, but I wouldn’t put it past myself to be absolutely convinced that people are still mistaking me for female (or worse, they can’t make out exactly what I am) because of my lack of out-of-control ‘brows. What exactly are man eyebrows supposed to look like? I’ve found myself studying men’s faces as of late, hoping they don’t get creeped out by my searching eyes.
Lastly, off subject, a little PSA/plug for myself: I have created a new twitter account to go with this blog (instead of my other personal one), so if any of you out there are on twitter, I encourage you to check out my twitter feed and follow me if you like!
Posted on October 8, 2011, in General transition thoughts and tagged appearance, body image, eyebrows, female to male, ftm, gender, gender expression, gender identity, glbtq, lgbtq, trans, transgender. Bookmark the permalink. 16 Comments.