It’s almost time for the coming out at work, and I’m getting more nervous by the hour, even though the first unveiling isn’t until tomorrow and the second on Thursday. Still, the more I think about it, the more I just want to throw up. I won’t be at the meeting on Wednesday since those staff are not really my direct coworkers, but I will be at the meeting on Thursday, and that’s the one I’m more nervous about. Not only do I have to see their faces when they hear the news, and deal with any possible responses or reactions, but I have to work with them and interact with them on a daily basis. So if this doesn’t go over well, it would suck. A lot. I have this crazy habit of working myself up in a tizzy before situations like this and envisioning how deadly awful they’ll be, but the reality is never even close. I’m sure breaking the news to my coworkers won’t be anything like what I’ve made it out to be in my head, but still, I’m scared. At least I know that I have the full support of the three people in the office who rank above me, which at times does considerably ease my anxiety.
On another completely unrelated note, I feel it’s only appropriate to make a brief mention of the DADT repeal. While this is certainly an exciting and moving time, I realize that the DADT repeal only covers the L, G, and B of the alphabet soup–there is no reprieve for the trans folks out there, if I understand correctly. And while I’m much more pro-peace than I am pro-war, and while this doesn’t have a direct effect on me, the fact that there is no gender protection for service members is both sad and infuriating. I can’t even imagine being trans in the military and seeing other LGB people rejoice over the DADT repeal while you still have to remain closeted and hidden. It’s like as far as we’ve come with the repeal, there’s still so far left to go. But by no means do I want my thoughts on the lack of trans protection to take away from the DADT repeal or those who have served (or continue to serve) while in the closet. A friend of mine posted the following video on Facebook a few weeks ago and I had to share it here. Like I said, while I’m not a pro-military person, this brief video and picture slide show was incredibly moving, and I encourage you all to check it out.
Posted on September 20, 2011, in Media, Transitioning at work and tagged DADT, Don't Ask Don't Tell, female to male, ftm, gender, gender expression, gender identity, glbtq, lgbtq, transgender, workplace transition. Bookmark the permalink. 12 Comments.